you know, it feels good whenever you finally decide to take the risk of jumping into something that you surely know will make you happy. against all the odds, you take the courage to stand firm for that. and it makes you happy...,,, but sad to say, not all the time... maybe for just a moment... happy that you are courageous enough, that you finally conquered some sort of 'fear' within you, and think that you have the world in your hand. it is indeed a victory for the mere fact that you overcome all those tough times... it's great! isn't it?
but as you go along, you are confronted with so many things. and the world just can't leave you happy and enjoying for what you have. and the painful part is when you are made to give up what you had just stood up for; when you are to take back the decision that you so longingly love and wishes to stick with... really painful... whew!
seems like giving up your everything... and you remain in the hope that you can go on with a new road, the road that you sometimes could hardly embrace. your reasons of resorting to it? well, the consideration you have for the people around you, probably the demand that is imposed upon you that you feel will make them happy...
it surely hurts whenever the very person or people you had hoped to join you in your victories, in your happiness, are the ones cutting it out for you. it's kinda depressing to know that you are doing things for them but you earned none of their consideration... hayyy...
as you are preparing for your departure from such point, with crossed fingers, may you be lead to that new road without regrets of the past...
and to whom shall you cling? of course, to your one and only GOD, the great source of strength... prayerfully, you hope for the grace that you really need, the perseverance, the generosity, the humility, the wisdom, etc... and you say, GOD i love you so... but how can i go on?...
to GOD we surrender...
God bless us all... God bless especially those who are in need of His great presence and warm embrace.
+ jocrossy +
9/20/07 - 1:31 am
